Waiting

This is so very surreal. I'm sitting here, reading books, playing soduku, and typing and every once and a while it will hit me that our lives are on eggshells right now. I keep thinking that BIL & FIL are at appts or in a meeting and they'll be coming back any minute now. Then BAM!!! I remember why I'm really here. Its just sooo odd. So many things can change soooooo drastically right now. I wonder if this is some sort of emotional way of dealing with it.

3 hours in, at least 3 more to go.......